why I can't spell (and inspiration)

[ghostkid_703]

My whole life I haven't been able to spell
"It's a learning disorder"
that's what they told me
something wrong in my head
a complication in the surgary
S-U-R-G-E-R-Y
I didn't know there was an E in that
I never know
Yet teachers say they like my writting
W-R-I-T-I-N-G
A compliment that seems so false
Words that never stick in my head
Writing this based on a poem I wrote in 6th grade
It has the same title
just flipped
inspiration seemed to come so easily back then
I was probably just younge
Y-O-U-N-G
something wrong in my head
Walls I've built for the single purpose of blocking my own words
" bad spelling doesn't mean you're a bad writer."
My English teacher said that two days ago
that was the first time anyone had ever told me that
I'd like to think it makes me feel better
it doesn't
It just sets a timer
A reason to write faster
but it leaves me in the same place
stuck in a train stop
looking at the passing people
axnsouly-
A-N-X-I-O-U-L-Y
waiting......