Religion?

[ghostkid_703]

I grew up in a very religious place, I was homeschooled, went to church twice a week at least, and even danced at a religious dance studio. But somehow that part of my life has completely left me, and maybe part of that is just growing up, who knows? whenever I started middle school I left Christianity behind, seeing it as something that I would never be able to have a good relationship with, something that because it hurt me so much it would never amount to anything else than a reminder of suffering. I remember all the nights I spent crying over some shame I was made to feel or fear of the rapture. I spent a lot of middle schools trying out new religions, Wicca, satanism, paganism, really just anything that seemed sort of taboo to western faiths. By the time I got to high school my whole family stopped going to church together. It felt like I had lost something, something I never even wanted. I'm not religious anymore, I don't know where this is going it's really just me rambling.